Post by Ziva on Apr 12, 2009 4:50:13 GMT -5
I had enough. The things Zane did, what we did, it was enough to change my mind. From a crazed werewolf to a being that now resented everything. Stumbling, wounds littered my half naked body, torn, ripped jeans and a shirt that have covered my upper area, I was cold. Cold, alone, scared. Funny, before I was insane, loving pain and being Zane's bitch, for lack of a better, more inventive term, now, I was merely a child walking upon this earth. Could I call for help? I couldn't access the munin to ask them to get Cole or whatever, not that I knew why I was suddenly blocked, perhaps it was because they may have been used to something horrific because I had gone over to Zane's side? "Anyone?" I called out to the forest, hearing nothing but the wind calling, answering me back. The wind brought scents of life, elk roamed nearby, but I was weak. Too weak to hunt, too weak to shift. Without anything to eat, I knew that I would die.
I screamed. The thing of being alone, it eats at you, gnaws at your mind. The pressing closeness of silence, the absence of joy and speaking of others. For a while I thought I had gone insane, staring at the same trees, the same piece of land. Blood ran down in rivers along my skin, wounds reopened since I didn't shift, and being too weak, my healing ability was flawed. All I knew was that I didn't want to be around Zane. The part of me that craved death, destruction, and pain, was now killed, dulled down, because of Zane. In a way, he saved me from that path, but the other way, he also destroyed a piece of me. Now looking back, the torture, rape and cruel days didn't make me feel good, it left a bitter taste in my mouth, and the desire for revenge. But how, how the fuck could I defeat someone immortal like him? He was powerful, he was never ending. I had betrayed the only ones that truly cared for some vile, fucked up, evil son of a bitch that walked this earth. God I craved death now to stop from feeling like this.
I moved slower, heading towards King's Pointe, the scent of the clan was everywhere, indication meaning that they had been here recently. Climbing, limbs ached when I reached the top to the point where I collapsed upon the ground, my fingers reached out to nothing but darkness. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please, help me. Save me. I'm nothing, I don't deserve to live." My thoughts coursed on the wind, not sure if the clan would hear it or not, but it was worth a try. Closing my eyes, and laying my head upon the ground, my body began to shut down. Not death, but sleep. Sleep that had escaped me, eluded me, now washed over me. I was tired, so damn tired. Tired, and still alone. Hows that for irony? I wanted to be alone, craved it, and now, I wanted nothing more to do with it. Such a rapid twist around.
I screamed. The thing of being alone, it eats at you, gnaws at your mind. The pressing closeness of silence, the absence of joy and speaking of others. For a while I thought I had gone insane, staring at the same trees, the same piece of land. Blood ran down in rivers along my skin, wounds reopened since I didn't shift, and being too weak, my healing ability was flawed. All I knew was that I didn't want to be around Zane. The part of me that craved death, destruction, and pain, was now killed, dulled down, because of Zane. In a way, he saved me from that path, but the other way, he also destroyed a piece of me. Now looking back, the torture, rape and cruel days didn't make me feel good, it left a bitter taste in my mouth, and the desire for revenge. But how, how the fuck could I defeat someone immortal like him? He was powerful, he was never ending. I had betrayed the only ones that truly cared for some vile, fucked up, evil son of a bitch that walked this earth. God I craved death now to stop from feeling like this.
I moved slower, heading towards King's Pointe, the scent of the clan was everywhere, indication meaning that they had been here recently. Climbing, limbs ached when I reached the top to the point where I collapsed upon the ground, my fingers reached out to nothing but darkness. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Please, help me. Save me. I'm nothing, I don't deserve to live." My thoughts coursed on the wind, not sure if the clan would hear it or not, but it was worth a try. Closing my eyes, and laying my head upon the ground, my body began to shut down. Not death, but sleep. Sleep that had escaped me, eluded me, now washed over me. I was tired, so damn tired. Tired, and still alone. Hows that for irony? I wanted to be alone, craved it, and now, I wanted nothing more to do with it. Such a rapid twist around.